Saturday, October 20, 2007

I almost want to sustain this moment in my life...

I was talking with my brother earlier, and I realized that when I go up on stage tomorrow, I'll be leaving part of myself behind... losing it... it's almost bittersweet; I almost want to hold tight to my life where it is now ... tomorrow's it though - the recital's there.

And with that recital, comes a transition... right now, I'm mike, the kid who's obsessed with the cello, who's studying it in school ... but when I walk on stage, I'm mike the artist ... it's the first time I've ever designed my own program or held my own concert ... it's the first time people are coming of their own accord to see Mike the Artist... and that may have been inspired by Mike the kid, but they're not there to see him ... they're there for the music...

On top of that... since it's a first, it means it's an experience I'll never have again... which means I'm leaving part of my life behind and journeying somewhere else... I'm looking forward to it... but at the same time, I want to hold on to what I have right now... it's kind of the last moment of peace... a goodbye, before parting ways...

Regardless off all this analysis though, I don't think anything's ever meant so much to me in my life before... at least not in this way...

It's going to be such an amazing experience...

2 comments:

cellodonna said...

I'll be thinking good thoughts for you on your performance tomorrow.

cellodonna said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog. Glad to hear the recital went well.

BTW, I'm in northern NJ not too far from the city.